February 2o - Total eclipse of the moon, Fidel Castro resigns, Barack Obama wins his ninth state in a row. Is there something happening here? This is just a bookmark, but I think today's an important day.
Alex F, who I'd hoped to find in the wilds of Nepal, is nowhere to be found, and yet, I think he'd be a fun person to re-acquaint oneself with. All this history has been flooding back over the last couple of days and I'm wonder if it's fat with Inner Meaning that I'm not seeing.
The rain is pouring down and the greyness is dotted with yellow acacia blooming all over the canyon. Jumby's father is in hospital and I'm going to see him this morning in the hope that I can cheer him up. Sandy, my mother-in-law, seems to have risen to the occasion in the most admirable and courageous way, and she has everything sorted. He's been in and out of ICU and yet she's remained deadly calm. We're all feeling new levels of respect for the sweet and quiet way she has handled all of this.
J's in Mexico City again. It's tiresome. I feel myself holding in all the frustration at his not being here, and pretending not to care, and letting the annoyance keep a low profile, buried in layers of belly fat and cashmere, but it is beginning to get to me. Admitting it is not easy though, because who the hell am I to complain and whine like a baby over this? Poor thing is working so hard and my bleakness is of my own making. I've TiVo'd all the Jane Austen I can find on PBS to cheer me up, although it does tend to make one's sentence structure somewhat antiquated.
One does feel an acute need to burst out of the minutiae. It's an easy and boring way to spend one's day, bogged down in it, when really what is needed is a busting out, like the acacia, really. Or to "rise above it" as my brother loves to say. Perhaps this rainy day is a perfect time to visit a museum and suck up some heady culture (not that ogling Michael Johns on American Idol isn't culturally fulfilling). Lucian Freud's drawings are in NY and so shall be one thing Minky and I shall visit this weekend.
Vain hope that the clouds will lift so that we can actually see the eclipse. I shall polish my binoculars in case.
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