Live your life as if the universe is rigged in your favor. I must remember this.
Monday, June 24, 2019
I am on a train to go to meet the bank for a grown up reason, and the first grown up thing I have had to do financially, despite running two successful businesses. I am going to ask for a mortgage so that I can buy a house in England. I think there is a name for this condition, which must be a medical one, for abject fear of money. I have always had trusted advisors or ex-husbands (1) who helped me through this stuff. For a modern woman who considers herself a feminist I am in fact embarrassed by my nerves, my lack of confidence on this level. I consider myself brave but I am the cowardly lion on this train, with a dry mouth and the jitters and a sick feeling in my stomach.