Not sure really what this is. To go from being alive and connected and buoyantly happy and feeling as if life is getting immensely better on every front. To glimpse real connection away from the isolation of alone-ness, to feel one's heart swelling (and all the things that goes with it, creativity, hard work, results, a feeling of belonging in the universe) and then something happens. Just a small thing, a misunderstanding, a hiccup, not much at all, but all of a sudden everything changes. Ephemera. And I am back inside the cocoon.
It's very hard to be vulnerable. I am terrible at it. But for a moment there I was.
I suppose you lick your wounds and you move on. Right?
Matters of the human heart are not for the frail.
Determined to be brave and strong and resilient from now on.
(It doesn't help that it's about 80 degrees outside at 2.30am).
It's that simple. Everything got much, much better. And then something happened.